Sunday, September 29, 2013

6A: Keep moving on

This month I have been facing one of the hardest challenges in my life so far.   Since the beginning of my junior year in high school I was in a serious relationship.  My boyfriend and I did everything together, and I mean everything.  Before I had my license he would pick me up after track practice, and we would hangout almost every day after school.  He would help me with my homework and make sure I was keeping up with school.  We went to his senior prom and both my junior and senior prom together.  This past summer we started getting into arguments all the time, I just thought nothing of it.  I thought all relationships went through rough times and that it would make us stronger.  It started getting worse though, over time it wasn't us getting into little arguments, it was him taking out his personal problems on me.  When something went wrong with his family he would get angry and be grumpy around me for no reason.  Even though I knew it wasn't right of him I stayed quiet and just dealt with everything all the time.  One day in the beginning of this month things got really bad, instead of staying quiet like I usually did, I finally stood up for myself. 



I had to be persistent and stay strong even though it was really hard, and it still is.  Even though I still think about it all the time I know I made the right decision by ending things.  A relationship is both people working together equally.  I should have realized earlier that I didn't have to put up with all the arguments and mood swings.  Even though I went through a horrible experience that I haven’t gotten over yet, I don’t regret anything.  I think that facing this challenge in my life has taught me a lot about myself.  I can’t just let people walk all over me; I had to learn how to stand up for myself.  As I continue to face this challenge I just keep trying to remember how much of a better person I am becoming by going through all of this.  The best thing I can do right now is forgive him and move on, I need to use this challenge as a learning experience rather than think of it as a mistake. 

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